My heart is very heavy this morning. I took the day off work to spend some time alone with God, to work on my camp talks. Anne called me and asked if I’d read Jamie’s update on Parker’s blog. I hadn’t, but I did and now I sit here at Panera, tears streaming down my face. And I don’t cry in front of people. Arrrrgggghhh.

Aaron & Jamie have come to the extremely difficult decision to put Parker completely into the hands of his Heavenly Father.

After much prayer, tears and conversation, Aaron and I have decided that it is in Parker’s best interest to give Parker’s health completely to God. This means that we are no longer going to take control and interfere with God’s mighty plan for Parker’s life. We do not see this as us giving up – but finally giving control to the one who we should have given this to from the very beginning. This is the hardest decision we have ever had to make – and I wholeheartedly pray that you never have to go through this.

I can’t fathom the weight of that type of decision. This morning, the decisions I had to make involved what to eat, what to wear, & where to sit. My heart breaks for the Underwoods, but at the same time I look at that family with a sense of awe. There are moments I can remove myself from the emotion and the tears and think about the huge picture of God giving Parker to them for a time and God loving Parker more than anyone here on Earth ever could. God chose Jamie & Aaron to care for this little boy, to love him, pray for him, give their lives up for him. God trusted them with precious little Parker, and they have been the perfect mommy and daddy for him. They have been incredible parents thoughout this painful time.

One of the things that’s so difficult is that Parker seems so happy and content in the face of death. Of course he does, because he’s been loved and cared for so well.

Please keep the Underwood family in your prayers through this time in their lives.